The older I get, the more I realize I am not of this planet. Yes I know we are wonderfully and fearfully made in the eyes of God, but I REALLY think I'm from another planet. I just don't understand certain aspects of the human condition. Perhaps it's because I'm on such a different wavelength (throw in a dash of not being overly charismatic since I've only been approached by sorry assholes of all races my whole life), but there has only been a handful of times when I succumed to my baser instincts. We know men suck and like to use their dicks as an excuse to do stupid risky things without a thought to the consequences, but what about women?
For example, I know a very creative, intelligent, sunny young lady who could go very far in the world if she chooses. Unfortunately, she possesses a patina of ghetto, and I truly believe I am the only person she knows that does not have that similar layer. Still, she is a positive person and is always learning despite the truly rediculous choices she occasionally makes. She still fishes in the so-called "black community" pond for male remnants in the hope of true love, though she knows damn well she can do better. She just fucked up again and even though I know full well I can't tell a grown woman what to do, I am still older and try to convince her that she is above this bullshit. I think she just wanted some dick, she has been celibate for a while. What she doesn't realize is that while she's getting hers, this thug wannabe is just like every other damaged black "man," who is only interested into getting as much pussy from as many women as possible. They're not looking to commit to anyone, EVER. She thinks she got the upper hand by getting some when in reality she got played - again. Pathetic. To surrender to urges that only satiate temporarily only makes you feel empty and guilty, at least I do. I just have too much self-respect... I prefer to play out my easy-sleazy fantasies in my mind. It's safer (besides, it never works out the way you want it anyway).